Boredom?
I am relearning how not to do anything. I am relearning how to be bored.
Some economists say that it’s human nature. To not be content with what you have and always want something else or more. But is… that… good… for… you?
I’ve been formed by the world around me to think like that. When I am at work and I don’t “do work”, I feel guilty. When I am just staring at the wall at 3AM, I feel guilty. Restless. I have an hour of free time? I should fit in a workout. I am not getting any notifications on my phone? I must be doing something wrong.
Fuck that.
Humans are supposed to be bored. When the brain is running on autopilot, the background threads come with the best ideas. Because the brain is rested. The constant influx of impressions, constant ingestion of new information, constant noise, constant focus. That is so bad. So bad.
Just take the physical world and physical exercise. You need to relax and recover after an intense practice. You can’t just keep pushing all the time. You will hurt yourself. Yet I keep pushing my brain all the time. And I’m hurting myself.
Boredom is good. No plan is good. Wandering mind is good. It’s fucking scary! But it’s good for you.
This guy is right.